Million ideas and only ONE shot.
I WHIP MAH HAIR BACK N FORTH.
I WHIP MAH HAIR BACK N FORTH.
I WHIP MAH HAIR BACK N FORTH.
LMFAO, im crying !
Its days like this when depression fills my mental
And speech is the last thing I want to deliver
and God’s greatest gift becomes my biggest curse
………..the ability to “remember.”
Lost in the world…
Runaway. A short film by Kanye West. Finally had a chance to sit down and watch this. This video is very oxymoron-ish. How can something be soooo “deep”…yet go “over” so many heads. First off let me credit Ms. Selita Ebanks who played the roll of “The Phoenix.” New number one on my list of “Hottest Women in the Game.” But thats for another post. One thing I respect about Kanye West is that his music goes beyond the average “club/hoe” pattern that hip-hop tends to follow. From a visionary stand point, to a creative mindset…there isnt anyone out that is on his level. When I think about the College Dropout…then to fast forward all the way through his discography, he constantly reinvents himself time and time again. Then to have the spirit and the boldness to release “808’s and Heartbreaks” (one of my personal favs) and be sensitive in a genre of music when “every man is supposed to be hard and on his player s***” just speaks volumes. Say what you want about him but all his records are the truth pertaining to him. What he is going through at the time is what your gonna hear and after watching this video…Kanye…you’ve done it again bro. And to those who didn’t get it…open your mind…your missing out on the makings of a masterpiece.
Fuego By Seoul Moore
I cant stay, cant stay
Yet…shes NOT mine, frustrate, frustrate
but the connect is made, too late, Mistakes
Heartbreak, by daybreak
loves dream crushed by reality’s wake
jeans back up…gotta throw my shirt on
cause when she wakes up shell see that im gone
beep beep, gotta text from the next
talkin bout she wanna make my new girl…my next ex
4:30am reads the time on the ‘lex
hearin somethin’ whisper “damn baby you the best”
but deep down…I know im not…
webs thrown and shes just another that was caught
askin myself just how did I get here
from the club
to the lot
to the pier
from the pier
to the house
to the mirror
from the mirror
to the bed
to her tears
cause thats the chain of reactions
the seed of the fruit that was planted with the passion
but I sit…lost in my own self
S.O.S the signal…cause I need help
I mean I got a girl already
and shes a good one…
yet layin next to another…
gift of my own tongue.
I mean mouth piece
cause I just gamed her up
and before I leave this one
another one is ranging up…
So really…what is a man to do
in love with the lies
cause his demise lies in the truth
I need to quit but im so addicted
Good man I wanna be but im so afflicted
I want love…drawn by the rush
but the thrill is gone…over shadowed by lust
for another one…
yeah and her too
oh and you right there…yeah I see you
cell text vibrating….gotta check the mail
so i rise up from the bed…to see what the new note tells
It reads: “I followed you from club…
…watched you in the lot…
all the way to the pier…”
Damn, fear is now my thought
I gotta get back to my girl…
…gotta fix this.
I realize what was important
damn if ill miss this.
Cause damn ill miss her…
and ill miss me…
cause in the lies I found myself…
…becoming a product of my own misery.
Hand on the knob as I slowly turn…
open the door…as I slowly learn…
that at home is where i should have been…and pain is now what ive slowly earned
…and to my surprise there she stands…
and all she can say is “yeah baby…now its your turn to slowly…burn.”
There are a lot of things going on in my life right now that should be taking me down. But for some reason there is this peace that I feel. Bills, deadlines, distractions, school, work, and anything else that the normal person goes through that causes them to break down…I don’t feel it that much. I’m not sure if this is myself becoming “numb” to the problem, learning to “live” with the problem, or finally finding self “peace” in the storm. I still have no clue of what I want to do with my life. That is probably the reason why nothing else has my attention because that thought alone terrifies me. They tell me its o.k. because many people in their 20’s aren’t sure what to do but not to sound rude, i’m not concerned about them at the moment. Im trying to find out what am I doing with MY own life. Insanity is defined as “doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.” In so many areas of my life I can classify them as “insane.” Just constant repetition of bad habits while expecting a different outcome. I’m standing at a crossroad of my life. Looking back I can see me as the young man and what I used to do. Some good, some bad, but always only thinking about self. Then I look down the other end of the trail and I can see the “future me.” I actually know who my wife is gonna be and not only who she is but she is a POWERHOUSE of accomplishments. I simply want to measure up because its what she deserves. So many things in my life I need to get together before making that step, but I can feel myself heading in the right direction. Before me I see thousand of options, and I really hope I’m choosing the right one. If tonight I can tell you one thing is that this IS your life. Even when your sleeping, your living it and time is ticking. Do what you HAVE to do NOW, because its gonna be even harder to do it later. Yet through it all…I’m STILL blessed and I’m STILL here. Its my 4th quarter, the clock is running, and I am about to pull off the greatest comeback in the history of my life. Its not over. I am still in the game. “Learn from this.”
The main thing Ive probably heard more over the past 3 months than I have my whole life is “What do you want to do in life?” Spent the weekend with the bros, since the misses was outta town, and while at Chipotle once again it was presented to me. “What do you want out of life?” Funny cause I can see where the frustration in my life has come from over the years. It was as if I was trying my hardest to run a race, with no clue of where I was headed, and without a finish line even being present. Wasted energy and time almost. I see my close friends doing so well in life and take it I’m doing well myself but I always know there is another level I can take it to. But some changes require a “Lifestyle Change.” For instance if your vices is women and sex and you want to change it…its gonna require a change from ever sector that makes up your life: Who you talk to, who you hang around, how long you hang around, what you allow yourself to see, what you allow yourself to think (we can control our thoughts), but the root of it starts at your heart. Change your passions, what you truly love, your morals, your values, and most importantly, your perspective. So once again I find myself at the bottom of another mountain, ready to climb it. But whats gonna make this one different from all the other mountains is that this time im going to exert my faith. So instead of climbing it…I can move it. So as the rain falls outside, as i’m typing this, ushering in a new season…Id like to think the weather wont be the only thing evolving this year. Open door. Walking through. -Seoul